I need time away.

I dislike my family a lot. Its unusual for someone to actually dislike their family I understand that, but I'm just so sick of them. They're so depressing. They make me depressed. My sisters a fucking bitch with a massive attitude problem, my other sister is super immature and can't even organize her self properly for example, shes pathetic with money. She can't save, she just spends and she's just pathetic all together. It makes life for the family so much harder. My parents are divorced and I live with my two sisters and mum and my lovely dog <3. When my old man was here, he would at least bring some happiness into the household and not always talk about money, and all this bullshit about being home on time. I'm loosing respect for everyone in my household. My mums just to fucking annoying. She just doesn't know when to give up. I'm 19, turning 20 and she treats me as if I don't know how to walk. I udnerstand that I'm her 'baby' still but there's just so much you can handle. I already give my money that I get from the government to her so she along with my sisters input and her own can pay for the house and for other minor expenses and she still asks for money from me! I work casual so I don't get income every fucking week and whatever money I do get I use for food, bus/train ticket and still to come my own damn Uni expenses. I need to get myself a laptop and I'm here struggling to give money to the family and to get to a place and study. I use to be such a happy guy, where I had no problem with people at all, but this family of mine is just wearing me down. So much. It's sad for me to say but I don't want to live here anymore. I want to find a steady 'part time' job so I can atleast build some of my own income and move out. I don't want to deal with them anymore. I don't care. They're doing everything so wrong. We could be living so peacefully if it wasn't for the expenses and the stupidity every brings. I'm not saying I'm perfect, cause I know for a fact I do things that wear them down. This family just doesn't get a long. My sisters in the other room watching tv, mother sisters sleeping and me and my mum just had an arguement because I didn't come home last night and slept at my friends house and now she just had another go at me because I didn't clean something correctly. Get the fuck over it yea? Its not the end of the world that I didn't clean something properly. She does all these things on her own when I say I'll help at a specific time. For instance. I had to mow the lawn today, yet she did it her fucking self yesterday. Why the fuck would you do that for? Thats my job, you're an old women that can't even sleep at night and has difficulty doing things and you mow the fucking lawn. Are you stupid? Are you trying to make me feel bad? Shit like that isn't going to work. I told her countless times that she shouldn't do anything like this yet she doesn't listen. So I just gave up. I just don't talk to her when she does stupid things like that. You're not young anymore, you're not as fast or strong as you were before. You need to fucking realize that and you need to fucking realize that no one in this household is happy where they are! Sell the house, get a smaller house thats cheaper then this piece of jynxd warehouse you call a home and start putting things into order or else everyone is going to slowly give up like I have now. I'm only going to think of my self, this family shits me to fucking much.

As always I can continue to go on about this but I won't. You get the idea.