I need to get myself checked out.

I'm literally depressed. Yes all aspects of it. I dislike my life.
I can't be bothered doing anything that I find interesting anymore. Like GRAPHIC DESIGN, or even play call of duty.
My supposedly best friend is out at the movies with mates and haven't called me for the 351 time. Now Youd think Id get over it but it still fucking bothers me and I hate them so much for that. He's the one with the girlfriend and doesn't 'have time for me' yet I'm the one feeling like shit. Life works it fucked up ways. I guess I had a good young life, I'll have a really fucked up older life now then just before I die I'll have the time of my life before I'm sent to hell. How sad =(.
I need to get my self check out.