In a sentimental state.

I'm listening to Ludovico Einaudi - Oltremare. I can't really say it's my favourite because I love all he's pieces. Reason I'm feeling sentimental is because of my dog. I got a big scare when his eye got infected. Its getting better I think. I continue to wash his eye with salty water and from the looks of it today it seemed like it was normal. I'm going to keep doing it, and possibly put some lemon in the water as well just so it cleans it and make the whites 'white'. But it just feels like his time is getting near. =( yesterday I was calling out his name and I'm hoping is my imagination but he wasn't hearing me until I would raise my voice a little higher and he would look at me. So in other words he's getting deaf. =( I don't want him to get old. Always wanted him to live along side with me and die along with me. Why do dogs have to live for a maximum of 15 years. Its stupid. I don't get it. Why do we live longer? Dogs are living things like us, they eat on a regular basis, need exercise on a regular basis. I just know that I'm not going to take it well when he leaves me. I t hurts so much to even think about it. People have been lknig/commenting on my profile picture on facebook which is of my Simsek (my dog) and just before I just stared at it for about 10 minutes until I realized what I was doing. I need to spend as much time with him as I can. I can just feel that its coming. You know that whole connected to your pet thing. I feel as if I'm connected to him. I know sounds korny and what not (bullshit blah blah) but really he's my ET wanting to go home and I'm the kid thats connected to him in everywhere and understands him. <3 Love you so much baby boy! Even though you're like 70 something years old lol. <3