Small Talk.

He said he misses me, =( I know sounds gay from how I'm saying it but he actually said it like " I miss ya" so not really 'gay' lol I have nothing against em but I prefer people not to think I am.
Yea sad face 
Its all small talk, he asked how 'school and stuff' is and I asked him how work is. Really random of him to message me. No effort put in and they come to me, but I'm just thinking, is it bad that I'm doing that. Even though it 'proper' for them to come to me and me actually knowing it I should just avoid that and put in the effort every time. Its their bad, not mine. But now it feels like I'm in the wrong. I just got some feeling that I don't like. I avoided saying I miss you to for obvious reason. trying to send a message that I'm annoyed with you and your group. I was your best friend and I hardly see you now. Once a week or once every two weeks or some sort of proper communication over facebook or fucking phone but nothing. For months I don't hear from you. I use to message you a lot, you use to keep it short. I didn't want to annoy I left it. We use to go to each others houses every weekend, we use to talk on the fucking phone about call of duty. I use to do all this, but I've stopped with putting in the effort and now this is what happened. Still hurts you know. You were honestly like my brother, but you ended up doing your own shit and leaving me behind it all. What do you expect me to do.
I expected to much from you, as a best friend. I think thats the feeling I'm getting. Fuilt or some shit. I expected to much from you and now nothing. Er, this is crap. Lifes going down hill for me and hasn't been in a uphill direction in a long time.