Um what the fuck.

I was just on the phone with whats her face. She called me, I wasn't really in the mood to talk but whatever I'm a 'nice guy' and I spoke with her. For forty minutes. Yea 40 minutes. She doesn't trust me. Its plain and simple. After I told her everything she doesn't trust me. So what I said was, if you don't trust me then don't talk to me, that simple. If you like me then why keep saying that you don't trust me and think that I'm still trying to get you. Get the fucking hint, I'm not talking to you properly because you're annoying me. Yea I did that little game to you for like 2 days, yea I ended up telling about what we were doing after 3 weeks but fuck man you're lucky I even told you. Now I'm just regretting telling you in the first place. FUCK! You call me say that 'you won't hang yourself'' if we actually stopped talking, well GOOD FOR YOU. I don't care. You're the one that thinks I'm still plotting to get you. If I was I wouldn't have told you in the first place, plus this whole situation is just shitting me hard so why would I want a relationship with you if it was brought up like this. Its just ugly and I'm finding you ugly. I don't find you fliratation jokes funny anymore, you want to stop flirting with people yet you say you want to play a game with another guy that wants you and you complain that I didn't find that funny. WELL SORRY. I'm just a bit mature for that now, I learn from my mistakes and telling you was a big fucking mistake. Note to self, if I do feel sorry for a girl, I will NOT tell her anything about anything personal. She says she's 'over it' yet she continues to bring it up and tries to make me feel bad. If this honestly continues that I'm going to tell her that I'm sick of it and I want to stop talking to you UNTIL I FEEL COMFORTABLE TALKING TO YOU. Seriously, yea I played the game on you. I said I'm sorry, I fixed things up, the guys going to stop 'trying' (like he had a chance in the first place) yet you're the one making things weird. FUCK DRAINING IT! and yes I am pissed off, and yes I'm looking out for my spelling errors and yes I'm going to continue to RANT ABOUT THIS until I see fit! For 40 fucking minutes we were talking about why I'm not happy blah blah blah. I told her what I said in my previous post, "don't expect me to be always HAPPY CHAPPY" because I'm not. I explained that I didn't feel like talking and just wanted to do my work, so don't think I wasn't just not talking to you, I hardly spoke to anyone. I spoke to you on the elevator. I was playing around with you on the elevator till you drained it and moved away from me. OH THAT'S RIGHT, I'm secretly in love with you and apparently touching someone for no apparently reason means that I'm flirting and I want you. GET FUCKED. Oh wait.. you already have. No, shut the fuck up. You been played, you should be feeling special that you have a boyfriend that fucks you, you had two guys that wanted you and one of them (being me) bailed out because he was smart enough not to get into that mess but was DUMB enough to actually say something about the whole fucking situation. I even told her. " I don't open up to girls that I like that easily, for those that I don't like I act like a complete idiot, I do stupid sex jokes and don't give a fucking shit about what they thought" and what did I do with her? Let me tell you I didn't "open up" to her I acted "like a complete idiot" I did "stupid sex jokes and" I didn't 
give a fucking shit about" what she "thought". (hehe see what I did there?). I'm finding her ugly now, telling me over the phone that she still thinks shit is going down, telling me that she got played be me. FUCK what about the other guy huh? Fuck why are you speaking to me then? "I like you" she says. Get fucked, you're just taking advantage of my niceness and taking advantage of it without fucking realizing it. So if you're not going to go hang yourself if we stop speaking THEN LETS STOP SPEAKING.
Watch what I'm going to fucking do. She's not coming in tomorrow, so on Friday we'll see who speaks to who. She can come up to me and say whats wrong why aren't you talking to me. What will I say " Even though I did what I did, and I apologized for it and did what I can to stop (the other guy) from continuing on and put in the effort to actually make amends with you, you still tend to just throw it in my face and make me feel bad about it, say you don't trust me, yet you still talk to me like nothings wrong. So excuse me if I feel a bit annoyed about that, sorry if I'm allowed to have an opinion about it. I know you didn't say I wasn't allowed but when I do act like the way I do, you just completely throw it back in my face and say that I did this, you fucked up, you have no right to do shit. So back off, you're not the only one with emotions. Don't forget you played along with it to at the start by flirting and having an idea we were doing something. So don't act all innocent."

For those who think I won't say this, I WILL SAY IT. People who know me, know that when I do get fed up, when I do get pissed off I do what I say. So an unfair warning, a warning you won't see, I will give it to your life when you ask "Whats wrong, why aren't you speaking to me?".