Safe to say

I think it's safe to say what I'm doing.
I just saw fleh. I called her a bitch and made everything awkward. My whole plan is to get back at this bitch for what she's done to me. I've mentioned it before. I'm sick of being played around especially by people who are my friends. We'll see how it goes when I isolate my self from everyone. How people will react. How my 'friends' will react. Everyday I'm realizing who my real friends are. Who actually put in an effort and who don't. Fleh on the other hand. I don't give a shit. She easily threw our friendship away because of him and comes running back. I'm going to make her regret it so much more the. What she already is. She think I'm playing when I'm being mean to her. However I am not. I'm being honest. I dislike her so much right now. At first I was like hrm. Another chance with Fleh. YEAH MY ASS. She hurt me so bad. I know this is a really sad and lame reference but like with Sasuke. He was hurt real bad and now he wants to take revenge. On the other hand you have Naruto who felt same pain yet does the opposite. I was thinking like Naruto, and I still kinda do. It's like those two angles on your shoulders. The good and the bad. So far I'm siding with the bad. Where the good tells me to just end it nicely and stop talking to her. In the end I might just end up doing that because I'm not fucking cunt that just ditches people especially friends for a relationship. So as I left. I acted like a massive dick towards her. Like every other guy that speaks to her. I want to make her feel insecure. Friendless. I want her to think that guys only want her for her short ass personality. Calling her a bitch is the first step. Once I get all this out I'll just act all normal with her. Confuse her. Which is already happening. She annoys me. Lets see if she learns from this.

I've noticed that friendships don't last long with me. A few years and that's it. Fleh was a few years the. It stopped for a year then it's on again. My old best friend was my friend since year 9 and now we hardly speak. I do take this friendship stuff seriously. Reason why it's the only thing I fucking talk a out half the time. My family is messed ip so I rely on my friends to be there for me. But they're not. I shouldn't expected them to be but I do. Fleh I'm sorry to say but you're going to be my turn around. That girl that turns a guy into the biggest dickhead. It's inevitable. I'm just sick of it and I'm sick of her. She said her self this will be the last time shell visit me. I said I'm glad. I don't know and do t care if she didn't believe me but I was being serious. I'm just sick of this shit. Like I said. I could be good and just ignore it all or I can be bad fuck shit up. I'm only fucking shit up. We'll see how far I go.