The meet up.

All I can say was, it was awkward for the first hour.
Fleh wanted to meet up, after having that massive fight over facebook it continued in person. Even though she thought it would fix it if she made the effort to come down and visit me. She was right, I forgave her, but I'm still that bit angry with her. Its not entirely her fault but she was stupid enough to go through with it and ditch everyone. So my case still stood.
I must say she looks so different. I missed her so much. No feelings or anything. Probably physically attracted but thats about it, but I did miss her.
I forced her to say sorry, forced to actually beg which it worked. I was being the silent type and she fell through. She hasn't changed, she still the same girl. She asked, "what do you want me to do?". I said for her to change, because of who she is now, she gets her self into to much grief. She needs to change the way she thinks and think more about her choices. Good thing about that is, she thinks on the spot and doesn't worry about the future. She was in-love which was added to another one of her experiences. Hopefully she won't make the same mistake and ditch everyone for her next boyfriend. She's so small as well, she comes to the height of my chest and I think I'm about 172cm or so. I'm not that tall either but shes tiny hehe. I wont get into details of what happened in the car, which nothing really did so don't get any ideas, but after it ended she gave me a hug but she ran and jumped which jogged some old memories. Last time I officially saw her properly where it was just a one on one was at her birthday about 6 years back. That was the fist time I saw her since primary school. Felt nice to actually have an old friend back, someone I've known for a long time. Only bad thing is I think she'll be relying on me to much which I don't want her to do. Reason why I want her to change is I want her to be her own self and be able to stand on her own rather then rely on others. I was the most difficult to patch things up with. With everyone else, she goes it was easy and quick. Haha I felt like an old man telling her this but 'everything isn't easy and you need to learn' which she disappointedly accepted. She doesn't think of me as a 'good' boy anymore but more of a bad ass cause I smoke -.- . Especially after finding out about the weed. Her view of me has changed which was what I wanted. However she still think I'm a harry potter lookalike nerd  =/.
That'll be the last time actually seeing her like this unless its at a party which I doubt will happen. Reason being is she just doesn't seem to be into it anymore. Before her boyfriend got involved I was honesty bum chums with her. I'd tell her anything and everything and she's do the same, we'd see each other as friends would but now I just have a strong feeling it won't happen. More of a, 'sup what you doin' thing via an sms. Sad really but what can you do.

Four hours being with her, old memories, good times. Was good but I'm still annoyed with her.
Weird thing is, I had feelings for her too. Can't really help yourself if she's attractive and you two got a long. I don't think anything like that will happen, especially after what happened anyway.

Finally decided to not post a picture up of her. Just doesn't feel right in this situation. Why? I honestly don't know.


^I think this would have been my first proper journal type entry. (Y)